If everything were normal, I would be posting a delicious plant based recipe. The truth is, things are far from normal.
Over the weekend, we frantically packed up everything we own.
Terrifying and insane and crazy.. but that’s how life has been lately.
It was time to make the toughest decision we’ve been asking ourselves for far too long. Do we stay in this house filled with fear, memories we are trying to forget and keep enduring the control? Or do we pack up everything we own, get the F out and start a new life, our own life, even if it’s scary?
We chose the latter.
While it was a terrifying life move, deep down, I know it’s for the best and was imperative for us to move forward. The house we’ve been renting, the job Marty had and the control we’ve been under is all tied to his family. I don’t think it’s my place to share why all of this is happening, although my life has been greatly affected – and not in a good way.
The bottom line is: the entire situation wasn’t working… and hasn’t been for quite some time.
Since we arrived home from Cancun, when I wrote this post, everyday has been filled with the unknown. While our living situation and Marty’s work situation are also unknown at the moment, anything is better as long as we are far away from residing in controlled fear.
We are safe and staying with family for the time being, and our doggies are happy wherever we go, as long as they’re with us. Chuy and Taz are holding us together and have been my pillows to cry on throughout the craziness. I wasn’t sure if I should share, but I’m tired of negative secrets and allowing others to scare me to the point where I stay quiet. Sharing a peek into what has been going on isn’t for revenge, it’s for someone else who is pondering a hard decision and needs encouragement to leave a messy situation and start a new life. I don’t want to feel missing anymore! I love connecting and creating. Sharing is about a mutual understanding or a feeling we can relate to that makes us feel normal.
This fresh start will be amazing for us, I can feel it. I know this because we can finally breathe and clear our minds. We can rest and sleep more soundly. I can truly be myself and we can start our life together with nothing holding us back.
The support from my family is all we need. My parents have been everything and more! Thanks mom and dad ?
Thank you for being understanding, commenting, sharing my recipes and supporting me. I love you all. I’m anxious to start fresh and to stop living in fear. I’m anxious to share new recipes that are colorful and make us feel good – which is what I’m going to work on now 🙂
I wish I had other news, but honestly, this is great news, even though it’s also insane. Sometimes I can’t believe it’s real life!
Time to figure out our next move.
Have you ever been in a situation like this?! What kinds of tough decisions have you had to make in your life? Share with me!